The older I get, the more affected I am by the deaths of people I know. Not in the grieving, sorrow kind of way but in the” hmmm, is my time coming soon?” kind of way.
The recent loss of a classmate from my spiritual group seems to have deeply affected me even though we weren’t personal friends or particularly close. Joel was having some pain in his leg and went to the doctor. The diagnosis was shocking – advanced cancer throughout the body. Surprise!
Since his death, I find my anxiety levels are elevated with any changes or fluctuations within my physical body. Death can surprise you. Just like Joel, I may not even see it coming! Logically, I know I am in good physical health, but for some reason my body is in overdrive looking for signs of its own imminent demise.